Something that got me thinking

当他还在你身边时，你会珍惜吗？你还会错过吗？

This phrase captured my attention while browsing through one of my colleague's blog. It made me thought of the situation my friend, E is facing. His story was quite a sad one, kinda like those which will only happen in those early days of chinese drama. Got to know E during poly days and he was a good, typical down to earth man that every girl would love to be with.. but ever heard before 男人不坏，nu人不爱 - it's just so true, well maybe to me, at least.

Anyway he's been through some major ups & downs in his 5 years relationship and my sincere admiration to him for being himself & able to stand up strong & determined * salutes* I would have fallen badly if I were in his shoes, and lost hope in all future relationships (perhaps that's why women are always more sentimental & emotional) He's into one relationship now, but it wasn't exactly something that's going pretty smoothly for him as well. They had a few loopholes here and there, now I'm beginning to ask myself regarding the phrase above, how true it is? Remembered the last meet-up session with Stan & P, we talked about meeting the right one. They felt abit pressurized seeing everyone around them settling down and wonders when they'll meet the ONE? But have they ever thought of this - What if that someone is already there, besides them? But they have never given that person chance to show their affection? What if that's really happening? Will they try?

Well, I do feel God had long assigned one partner to each & everyone, it's just about how we can/are going to reach that correct path. 当他还在你身边时，你会珍惜吗？你还会错过吗？ - my answer : we always take our loved ones, those people who cared for us, for granted sub-consciously. Because we know they are always there when we need them, they won't run away. But little do we know how bad and painful it's gonna be when they are out of your life. E used to debate within himself whether to give the relationship a last shot, but will there be a chance given for that last shot? - it will be a ?? Very ironically in life, when you have overcome your fear and determined to do something, you'll only come to realise that chance was gone, it had slipped away gradually...

:: Weekend without him ::

It's been a while since I went clubbing.. but definitely it's my first time to go after Sentosa's getaway. Haha. Can't believe we actually went for it! *Awesome* Started our weekend at Sentosa, when we reached Sunset Bay, E was already roasted-like! He looked just like *ABNN !! We used to tease him that he looked more of Indian than Chinese and he made it to the chart NOW. Of course not forgetting to compliment HX, she actually turned up at Sentosa but was like 2hrs late? Hey the catch is - she TURNED up *opps* (she's gonna strangle me when she read this) but who cares ;p - WOW

HX only get to sun bathe for an hour before the heavy downpour (retribution?) and we got stuck in the shelther for almost an hour before we can even head for showers! *argh* Reached home, only to find myself relaxing abit, waiting for P's call. I guessed everyone should be quite rush in getting out to dbl O, and I still have the time doll up myself abit and headed to the Ladies before I set off. Everyone reached almost 10pm, immediately started our rounds of 5-10, with jugs of Vodka Lime, Ribena, RedBull in front of us. Guess who won? Well the "cheats" killed us! So can't say that they won, because it wasn't at all a fair game, it was more of FUN than fair. Oh ya, my cute friend P was tipsy when I came back from rounds of dancing, and she looked so CUTE! Who else but my sicko brother gave her one glass of "Screwdriver" and there she goes.... she lost it, but not totally *applause* GANBANTE ! To hold your liquor fairly well is quite important to all ladies out there, not asking all to be drunkards but fairly well, at least. In that way, one won't be easily be taken advantage of! It's been awhile since i clubbed and it was also the 1st time had an heated up conversation with my sicko brother. Felt kinda disappointed in him and myself though but hope this won't affect our friendship in any way. Bro, u know I treasure you lor. Hey to those who went, let's go there someday agaiN! - Mr "Clown" jio'ed on next pay day! .... sHaLL wE??

N70! Finally, it's in my hands! Waited ages for this mobile phone! Haha, been looking out for good promotions before getting it, doesn't justify if I were to pay $800+ for a hp. Was flipping through NP and manage to catch a glimpse on the promotion, says "$200 off 2nd set of 3G phone", told Stan about the promo and he's interested too. Apparantly he has been eyeing on that hp for a long time too! *hi5* We headed down to j8 to check out the promotion, and it was really a GOOD deal manz. Hubby had asked me to keep a lookout for n70 and to grab it once there's a good promotion, but I decided to get 2 sets instead. One for him and one for myself. Well, he gotten himself Motorola V3 just before his OPS (I'm using it now ;p) but I know he will like n70 more, because of it's functions and it's almost a "everything in it" hp, definitely 95% better than V3 - 5% for V3's slimness. Gonna give him a surprise when he's back, yipee. Now I'm a little penniless-to-be gal, because never expected to come across that promo that soon, but it's ok, just have to cut down on my meals will do.

Can't wait for him to be back to "3G" with him, haha. Besides, who else can I 3G with? In anyway I didn't go for its 3G function, find it abit "inpractical" for now. Now I'm able to store lots of mp3s, set my personal ringing tones and flashes my camera that's 2.0 mega pixels! YIPEEE........

:: its 3 months 6 days more ::

Still hanging on, surviving well

Waited for weeks for my ROM's photos to be ready, and finally I got all soft copies back! Yippee. I missed him already and knowing those photos we took, will greatly help ease my madness! I LOVE all photos taken that night, am very pleased and satisfied with the end-products, thank you - OStudio! I was grimming all the while whenever I look at those lovely moments, it was simply unforgettable. No wonder it's called Once In A Lifetime - you'll not get that moment as and when you like/want it, it will never be that significant anymore, anywhere.

My hubby left me for 1 week 2 days, and well (sad to say) I'm surviving well, just that the degree of missing him increases tremendously as days passes by. Went to Sentosa on Sat with my bros' and P, just wanted to enjoy the sun bath and relax myself, since it was quite a period I visited Sentosa. Wow wee, I was kinda amazed with the changes over there, it was so much nicer, cleaner and tourist-like. Now the Blue Line will terminates at the beach terminal stop, Palawan Beach, Sunset Bay & Siloso Beach are all connected and accessible either by walking or internal shuttle train services. We took a walk down to Sunset Bay and slowly find our comfortable zone to settle down. It wasn't as crowded as it used to it, wonders is it because it's a Saturday or the different beach?

Nevertheless, it was very enjoyable with my bunch of crazy, insane, no-sensetica brothers! Left and went for dinner with my hubby's bros at Honji Jap, Robinson rd. Seeing them makes me thinks of hubbie more, because they always hang out together, but now its the same gang with the absence of one man. Guess what, we're going to Sentosa next sat too! GREAT! Intend to get P to join in the fun, hope she comes along =p It'll be fun! Sun-bathing again!

He called today, eyes turned watery when he said "Happy Valentine Day, dear" - Happy Valentine Day to you too, hubby!! Will be going F&Co for dinner with P, feels abit disappointed that he's not with me this Vday but I know I'll enjoy myself with P too, it'll still be the same, just without the holding hands and hugging part. We'll make the best out of it! To all lovers out there - HAPPY VALENTINE! SHOWER YOUR LOVED ONES WITH LOTS OF TLC, THEY DESERVE IT.

Now I truly understands this - Absence makes one's heart fonder.

Hubbie, come back soon!

He's been away for only 2 days but I started to miss him already... how to survive the rest of 3 months? Nah, I'll pull through! Can't believe I'm married, Mrs. Chia already. I quite enjoyed the status, perhaps it's a new chapter in my life. Still remembered the last night I slept over at his place, I weeped when he hugged me. Luckily he didn't realised because lights were off then, I can't help but feel the sadness that I won't be having such hugs, no one I can pour all nonsenses to for a freaking 4 long months!! OMG! I know my friends will still be there for me, go out with, but it'll still be different compared to him.

Went for his sending off on 4th Feb (Sat), promised him I'll not cry! Sigh ít didn't happen! I kept my cool till he went on board ship, my tears tickled down automatically. Oh boy, i am so useless! I misses you already! Come back soon, ok??

At least I can still look forward in collecting my ROM photos, something to think about while he's away. 010206 - it was a wonderful night! I felt pure happiness and joy that night, esp when he knelt down. Everything was perfect but there's still some disappointment in there. I kinda feel bad for the ratio of ang pows coverage, but hubbie ensured me it's ok, I was touched by his gesture, thank you for being the understanding one. Perhaps it's me, whom always think everything was wonderful & positive. He had always told me good man dies young, I'm starting to believe it. I'm tired of being the organizer, the initiator, the lead. Decided to stay out from now on.

I was quite surprised with the dressings of each individual that night, surprised on how simple some took my event and how some took with great respect. I appreciates, thank you. I don't blame anyone, anyway it's over. I can't expect everyone to follow my expectations (something I learnt), anyway the most important thing is I enjoyed every moment that night. Yes i DID.

Recently met up with XH, told her how I was touched by Zhixiong & Eu's care towards me that night, esp Xiong. He really LOOKed after me that night, helped me drink quite a no. of beers (because hubbie was already dead drunk). Through-out the whole event, I am surprised that they're actually the ones who had been helping without me asking them. THANK YOU. I owe you guys one! And thank you for being the mcees that night.

Hubby, you got yourself great buddies and they'll be mine too!

Missing you..........!!