Sweet May

Finally... all the waitings are being paid off.
01 day away in collecting my house key and it's officially our home.
03 days more, and my hubby is back!

So I should conclude this as my sweetest end May 2006. Esp with all those hiccups in house issues for the past 1 month, it's finally done and over with! Can't thank my house agent cum friend well enough, he has BEEN truly helpful; seriously don't think it's his duty to help me out on some misc stuffs but he really did it out of goodwill. I think I am really one fussy and diffcult client one could have dealt with, but guess he manage to handle me well. Given one more time, I really really do not wish to get involved in house matters anymore, not alone. It IS tiring to follow up on alot of issues and esp when I'm declared the P.A (Power of Attonery) of my hubbie. Just allow me to complain for once......... anyway i'll not have another of such up and coming! (Opps, I sure hope so) - IT IS TIRING and troublesome! Haha =)

The next upcoming battle to fight : Renovation

Renovation = ideas + conflicts + communication + quarrels + time + efforts + headaches + MONEY

03 more days! OMG... I wonder what will be our reaction the 1st thing we see each other?? Haha, it sure will be funny and "weird". Of cause happiness will be shown across our facial expression but I guess laughter will be thrown over from me too.

Can't wait to present the 2 surprises I've planned! Hubbie.... I'm damn looking forward to see you...it's been 4 months!! Oh boyz...

Missing u

No longer ....

SOON....
No longer need to being alone...
No longer sourcing for renovation quotations alone...
No longer discussing renovation ideas alone with I.Ds...
No longer be lonely weekends nights...
No longer will be feeling the emptiness in me...
No longer need to feel that sadness seeing couples hand in hand..
No longer need to be envious of other couples...
No longer will have to go through that 4 months of waiting.......

10 more days....

What exactly is wrg?

Nothing seems to be going right & smoothly for me these past 1 week!! Can someone please tell me what's going on??
Very tiny matters irritates me big time!! WHY?

Oh my...please take away my irritations & frustrations, someone please do so ?!
Hopefully tomorrow will be a much better day! I don't even know what causes me to be so vexed. I only know I just finished opening up about 20+ of letters (i hate letters!), looked through & reconcile most of the credit cards statements, did my hubbie's HPS application online. Time isn't enough for me - or am I moving too fast n rush!

Who can bring some smiles on me?? I REALLY REALLY need that!
Realised I overspent this month... chiam!! I wonder why did I only started overspent this mth if I can control & overcome for the past few months. But the funny part - thought I did shopping, I don't feel happy still.

Going crazy soon...............................

Monday BLUESssSss !!

Can't believe how BLUE my monday was!!!
WTF
Morning : Supposedly to wake up at 7:30am this morning, but only manage to drag myself up ard 8:05am! I have to reach Tanjong Pagar at 9:00am sharp for my 3 days course; got on the cab at 8:25am, there's no way I can't reach my destination in 35mins! WELL.... I reached at 9:15am! It took me more than 30mins to get to T.Pagar from AMK, DARN! Total cab fare = $15.40 !! $11.40+$1+$3 (CBD SURCHARGE) !!!

Lunch : Decided to have it @ HANS which is located directly at SpringLeaf Tower itself; don't wish to go somewhere far anyway (I hate to have lunch alone!) Found 1 empty table for 6 in the open area, left my bag there to "chop" the seat so that I can proceed to order my sandwich. I ordered 2 slices of Ham & Egg toasted sandwich and 1 tea C kosong. F*cK it became Ham & Egg Mayo sandwich (i hate MAYO) just because I forgot abt the FRIED word!! Should be Ham & Fried Egg Toasted sandwich!! ARgghhhhhh no choice but to eat that UNWILLINGLY because it cost me $3.20! Cannot possibly ask me to re-order another new one; well I would do that in the past but not NOW. Finished my sandwich and I am still hungry (didn't have time for breakfast), so I went in to order my blueberry crumble pie, to enjoy it slowly with my 1/2 drank tea c-kosong. When I came back with my pie, only to realise the waitress cleared AWAY my tea!!!!

After course : Had to go all way down to Hougang to get my laptop back from Pei. Took the mrt from T.pagar to Outram and change to the NEL to HOugang! And BEST part there's no bus from the mrt, so I have to WALK! I was so damn tired alrdy...the thought of walking in SUCKS! It was about 7:45pm when I left her house to take bus 72 (I was determine to take public because I had alrdy wasted $$ on cab this morning, can't take cab AGAIN - waste $$) Walked all way out to the bus-stop (about 15mins walk) and I started to dig my bag...GUESS WHAT! I left my handphone at her place!!!!!! MEANING I got to walk back AGAIN to get my hp!!! FYI I was wearing a sweater today! With the laptop and 1000ml shower on my arms + my heavy bag weighing down on me, i walked back!!
I was totally dead-beat, sweating, and I took CAB home!!! I HATE MYSELF.......!! I HATE TODAY!!! TOTAL WASTE OF $$$$ AND TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Some thoughts

We are confronted daily with problems. Instead of trying to avoid them, see them as opportunities for you to re-learn and re-think what you are doing. You do not have to re-invent the wheel but you can certainly improve on the quality of the wheel and make it more durable.

Make it a point every day to learn something new or do something different. Try to think of something that you have been doing regularly to see whether you can refine the process, perhaps shorten the time to do it of make it more efficient. Do not start thinking only when things go wrong. Be proactive, not retroactive. Being constantly on the lookout for how you can change things will make you more efficient and motivated.

"The world we have made as a result of the level of thinking we have done thus far creates problems we cannot solve at the same level of thinking at which we created them"

- quoted Albert Einstein

Absence of your dear ones

Ever wonder how it feels without your loved ones besides you?
Ever wonder how much you will miss that someone?
Ever wonder how long it really is to wait for that someone?
Ever wonder how slow time can crawl?
Ever wonder you might get sunken into something you thought you'll be able to overcome?

Ever wonder.... if all these never happen? Be'cos I wish

I finally completed the card booklet for him, hope he'll be surprised and like it. Guess it'll only reach him in another 1 week, so shall await for his call then. Well, it's just another 24 days more before he's FINALLY back! Excited, thrilled?? You bet so, but I also am having mixed feelings; slipping into depression. Perhaps as the number of days shorten, I am beginning to realise the number of months he has been away, the various things and matters he had miss out during these 3 months. Missing him is already an under-statement for description.

I had such huge confidence in myself that I can cope with these 4 months without much problem; besides we're just talking about months not years; so thought to myself what are these 4 months to me? "It's nothing" Guess I over-estimated myself. It wasn't easy at all; especially with flat issues unsettled, sourcing for good renovation quotations, some other ad-hoc issues. Perhaps it's tireness that dragging me down; Saggitarius - highly independent humans, like to take on responsibilities & duties theyselves.

He'd missed our past 3 months anniversary, it's ok. He will make it up to me for our upcoming 4th one! (He better do) Guess I'm just a typical depression lunatic; time of the year! Now my hubby must be wondering what had got into me at the other far end of the horizon.

Perseverance keeps you going