Absence of your dear ones

Ever wonder how it feels without your loved ones besides you?
Ever wonder how much you will miss that someone?
Ever wonder how long it really is to wait for that someone?
Ever wonder how slow time can crawl?
Ever wonder you might get sunken into something you thought you'll be able to overcome?

Ever wonder.... if all these never happen? Be'cos I wish

I finally completed the card booklet for him, hope he'll be surprised and like it. Guess it'll only reach him in another 1 week, so shall await for his call then. Well, it's just another 24 days more before he's FINALLY back! Excited, thrilled?? You bet so, but I also am having mixed feelings; slipping into depression. Perhaps as the number of days shorten, I am beginning to realise the number of months he has been away, the various things and matters he had miss out during these 3 months. Missing him is already an under-statement for description.

I had such huge confidence in myself that I can cope with these 4 months without much problem; besides we're just talking about months not years; so thought to myself what are these 4 months to me? "It's nothing" Guess I over-estimated myself. It wasn't easy at all; especially with flat issues unsettled, sourcing for good renovation quotations, some other ad-hoc issues. Perhaps it's tireness that dragging me down; Saggitarius - highly independent humans, like to take on responsibilities & duties theyselves.

He'd missed our past 3 months anniversary, it's ok. He will make it up to me for our upcoming 4th one! (He better do) Guess I'm just a typical depression lunatic; time of the year! Now my hubby must be wondering what had got into me at the other far end of the horizon.

Perseverance keeps you going