The Past & The Present ?


Is it really me that can't seems to be able to get over the past?? Seriously I don't think it's the past that I havent gotten over but the impact my past has left it's mark on. It started off with a very causal discussion between his friends and me, on MLM business. MLM = 3 most sensitive letters one topic can ever cover on. Everyone including HIM started to comment their views on the level of possible opportunity & result MLM can provide. I'm the only one that is negative about it, I have came across various MLM companies during my previous 3 years as customer service cum operation executive cum marketing exec in another MLM company.


I'm not saying that I'm good in analyzing their business & payout plan but I do have the minimium knowledge of such. For my previous company, I know the inside and out of company history and bonus payout for distributors, we have many our ways to protrait 'good image' & excellent top leading distributors to brainwash their team. MLM is not 100% flopping business to do but it's normally 1st 30% goes to company, next 10% of pioneers who will soar; 60% will be those helping the 40%. Every MLM company patent their own unique payout compensation plan, but it's all about the same theory.


I had my fair share of happiness with my then boyfriend, only to have MLM taking it all away slowly. I was totally against him doing MLM, but he wouldn't listen to my advice. Decided to let him have a shot at it, doing it part time. Gradually he became extensively involved, quitted his stable job, 'invested' more money into it. Initially I'm only giving him 1 year to prove results to me, but that 1 year extended to 1 & 1/2, and finally 2 years. There is absolutely negative results to present to anyone including himself but he just wouldn't give up. These 2 years plus had been such straining period for both of us esp for me. Time, needed care & concern, confidence in our r/s, security were lost in that transition period. I know it'll be hard to build all those back already.


Eventually I gave up and walked out. Lost someone to MLM. Sounds ridiculous? Be in my shoes and you might empathize.


This is one thing I DON'T wish my hubby to get involved in. I do not want to ever go through that kind of transition anymore.... no more! It's painful & disappointing. Thus whenever we talked about MLM, I always sounded more aggressive, just wanting to get my point across to him for him to understand. Am I being selfish? How could I let my past get the better side of my present? I know they are two different person and I shouldn't hang on to my shadow but shadows will always be shadows to follow your back. It's only if YOU want to turn your back to see it.


Hopefully hubbie understands. I meant nothing but well for him.


:: For he ( a man ) will still pursue his own dreams ::