We were there, were u there?
Never ever thought our next meet up will be the final one..
Never thought it'll be under such circumstances...


I kept looking at your photo, kept asking myself - Why? Why you?
Sorry that I didn't look at you for long, but you know how much I wanted to. I can't. Tears tickled down, and I walked away.



We were all talking about the fun times we had with you @ I2, EQ. Your favourite sentence "What's for lunch?" but now no more of that at all.


No more HANS sandwiches or your english breakfast set..
No more economical bee hoon..
No more Nasi Padang whenever we feel rich at month end..
No more tea sessions..
But I always will have you in my heart


At least I'm glad you've seen my ROM photos even though you didn't manage to attend (you were in HK). I know you're truly happy for me, because all along we both wanted each other to be happy & blessed.


No last chance to say my goodbye.. because I never thought I have to.


Felicia Ho Mei Leng... I know you're blessed in God's hands now.


with greatest love, i signed off

It was about 4 years back when we first met. My very first day @ Infinity2, sitting at my allocated table reading through some relevant introductory brochures of the company with Jacq. You, the finance manager walked in solemnly, didn't even glanced at me nor acknowledged my pressence. I concluded you'll be one hard-ass to get along then.


During the pioneer year, it's only Jac, Alana, Digby, you and me @ Greatwood building, Carpenter St building up the team. It was amazing how we both got along so well gradually, you're one jolly jovious being! Digby was often bullied, ignored by you and Jac, I'll always be the one to entertain him be'cos I'm the new bird, but slowly got influenced & join in the club! =)


When Jac left the company, we two became even closer. Tea-si-kosong is a definite order every morning when you're @ Infinity2, always can't wait to start our gossip session, still remember how many times Digby found us inside the pantry yanking away?? I already lost count!! "It's not gossiping, it's caring" remember ?


Oh boy, when Holly joined, it was so much fun. It feels good to go to work everyday though the shift timing sucks big time, but it was fun having you around. You always dislike being disturbed by distributors when you're in office and often got to cook up good reasons for you. When Gloria & Sebas joined, we knew they're not able to camoflage into our team and we were right. It doesn't take long for everyone to dislike Gloria's working style and Sebas's way of dealing with leaders, esp ME.


You always am there for us, showing me the support we needed. Fighting for our rights and what we ought to deserve.


Do you still remember our chats? Do you still remember our times?


From Infinity2 to EQ, from Carpenter st to Robinson rd, from strangers to close-frd, all these are unforgettable! Many times when I just wanted to end it all, tendered in my resignation, it was because of you, I held back. Silly? Perhaps. But I never once regretted my decision about that. It's only last year when I decided to move on, at least Yvel will be there to help you.


I missed those times. Do you miss it too? Will you remember it?
Will you remember us ?


I will always remember you, Felicia.


You were more than just a colleague, close friend to me. We shared too many things, your departure is just too unexpectedly sudden. Thought we promise to meet up when you're better? Thought you're recovering? Why?
Maybe I should feel more relieved and happy for you instead, at least you're being taken away from your pain.


You often told me that God knows what's best for you, he'll give you the answers. Felicia, this is the answer.


You'll always be remembered.


Rest in peace, my dearest sister.

: 12 July 2006 :

Contradiction / Self-denial


Watched "The Oprah Show" last evening and the topic kinda caught my attention - "Unfaithfulness"
Very interesting...


This caucasian couple were married for coming 7 years+ but.. her husband had been unfaithful to her for the past 5 years. She only came to know the truth 2 months back, when he decided to break the news. She said she was heart-broken at that point of time but amazingly she forgave him because she loves him. Oprah Winfrey asked "what makes you want to forgive him?" She replied "I know him too well. I know it's the excitement she (the mistress) gave that had him on but not the person herself. It's all about sexual, that's all." Oprah was stunned by her reply, and probed further "Aren't you not hurt at all?" "If it's all sexual, I'm ok. If they're emotionally attached, that'll hurts! It's nothing personal, the problem lies in him!"


Oprah exclaimed "U mean it's nothing personal??? I think it's very personal!!"


Oprah asked "Aren't you least aware or sensed something is wrong? Because the affair was carried out for 5yrs?"


She replied "I can tell everyone out there, I never ever doubted my husband or to think that he'll be doing that behind my back 5 years ago. I trusted him. Everything was perfect to me. I cannot even sense a bit wrong with my marriage... "


When Oprah asked him if he felt for his mistress " Erm, yes I do. It's not just about sexual, it does involved emotions in it too. " Oprah : "Do you think you'll have another affair again, base on right timing, right atmosphere?" He paused for awhile and nodded his head " Yes, I think so. I can't guarantee I won't."


WTF !!! I wonder why do humans need to be so frank at times? The truth DO hurts.


She explained "I know I have to be blame too. For the past few years, it's all about work and children to me, I was never involved in his life. All I thought was to give him a better life, that's all. Different people have different hopes & givings. For me, I wanted the best for him. "


Gail Saltz, author of "Becoming Real" shook her heard & told her "You're in such huge denial.. trying to hide all his flaws. You'll only bring yourself to suffer for all I see if that he'll rebounce back."


She explained "Maybe I'm in denial. But I'll not forget the vows we took and will keep on trying to salvage this marriage till the day comes when I've to go down to the lawyer's firm to file for divorce."


WOW! I am stunningly amazed by the nobleness or should it be sillyness of this woman.


True love is about sarcifice; being able to sarcifice up something for the most you loves and treasure most.


Love is never selfish.

Chanced upon this column in NewPaper, decided to post it for all to have a quick laugh :

• Ah Beng was filling up a job application form. He filled up the columns on name, age, address, etc. Then he came to the column on salary expected. After much thought, he wrote: 'Yes'.

• Ah Beng had just bought a new computer and was using it. When he encountered some problems, he decided to use the 'Help' command. Soon after, he became very irritated and called the computer retailer for support. He said : 'I press the F1 key for help lah, but it's been over half an hour and still nobody come and help me!'

• After completing a jigsaw puzzle he'd been working on for quite some time, Ah Beng proudly showed the finished puzzle to a friend. 'It took me only five months to do it,' Ah Beng bragged.'Five months! That's so long,' his friend exclaimed. Ah Beng shot back: 'You fool. The box says 'For 4 to 7 years'.'