Is it the changing world or it's the changing me?

Recently I had a short conversation with my best friend H through msn, was talking about one close friend, X, we knew since sec school. X wanted some financial help and had approached her for help, instead of encouraging H to go all way out to help X, I was actually negative in helping. I can't imagine I was reluctant to help!! Not because I din want to, nor I can't. But I don't want to be helping X in the wrong way anymore!! I'm tired to see that she doesn't even realise what situation she's in now, we can't be always there to help her, how long can we do so? How much can we do? Maybe I sound selfish but it pains to see her having to struggle to make ends meet!! When will she ever wake up? Please wake up soon!!!

Single mothers have my upmost admiration and respect but not this friend of mine! I find her so silly.... to choose to let herself and kids suffer? She's married with 2 kids, no it should be 3 kids (1 is 4 months old in her womb) but she is no different from being single! What has her husband provide her or the family with?? What has the husband done his part in ?? If men are all selfish, high egoistic creatures.. he is one SUPER selfish man! - no doubt about that. Why let her suffer, when you promised to take care of her the entire lifetime? Worst of all, do you think you are doing any good by not giving up the 3rd one? You're and will be the culprit for the their sufferings and unhappy childhoods!

I wanted so much to help X .. but I want her badly to wake up and realise that this isn't going to work out! I decided not to help. Cruel and selfish I may sound, but if she doesn't help herself, no one else can. We had always been there for her since the birth of the 1st one, we never left her to die, never! It's only enough when she ignored our advice to abort the 3rd one. Can't she see how she struggles to have only $100+ or at times none to spare every month end? Can't she see how tired and haggard she has becomes over these years looking after her 2 kids? Can't she feel our pain? Can't she feel we cares alot ? Can't she feel what's the best way out?

I started thinking what made me said those stuffs to H? I asked H : "How long you want to help her?" H replied "But we can't not help her right?" It's so right, but yet are we helping her? Has the changing world changed me or I have changed? But I know one thing for sure is right - The World Will Not Stop Revolving Because of You